Dear mama, the trying mama… The one who one day hopes to be called “mama” The next few days may be the hardest for you, right there with Christmas and every other holiday when pregnancy announcements pop up everywhere. We are trying to pass by your post without tears, we really are. It’s not that… Continue reading Dear mama, the trying mama
Category: Infertility
We were ready for you
We were ready for you, we were set. I was ready for you. Now that "ready" I thought we were is sitting in the corner of my room. At first it was all put together - a pillow, stuffed animals (that quickly became dog toys) and a quilt that Aaron's mom had made. I thought… Continue reading We were ready for you
A true gift, from a Grinder
Yesterday was my sweet husband's mother's birthday. Yes, my mother-in-law. That phrase, role, title whichever you prefer has rung negatively for so many for so long. For me, it is what I longed for the second I met Aaron. There is no way a man like that came from anyone less than incredible. And I was… Continue reading A true gift, from a Grinder
LEVERAGE.
My dad has always told me “It’s all about leverage.” The summer I worked for my dad was one I will always remember. Wearing boots and carrying a hammer around. Mostly sweeping up saw dust and filling nail holes. He would pick me up before 7 a.m. with a smile on his face, no matter… Continue reading LEVERAGE.
Just leading each other home
Someone told me not too long ago, "We are all here just leading each other home." This statement has stayed with me, it has repeated itself over and over again. All of those around us are there for a reason; they are our life lessons. They teach us patience, love, and to be kind. They… Continue reading Just leading each other home
But we both know someone else
You saw me, you saw me the day I needed a boost in faith. I didn't even know you.. but we both know someone else. Monday afternoon was just a regular day in my small town. I was working lunch when one of my girlfriends from school asked me how I was, how things are… Continue reading But we both know someone else
You have been assigned this mountain
"You have been assigned this mountain to show others it can be moved." I find myself always looking... always looking for a project, a puppy, (that's not a joke) someone who might need my help or even a sign. Just something to reassure me that I am doing the right thing. That all the decisions… Continue reading You have been assigned this mountain
“No one has me like you do..”
"I have never loved this big.." Words I will never forget. Words spoken by my husband Aaron, part of his vows the day we promised each other forever. A sunny day in February on the beach of St. Petersburg... that is when our journey started. It is one thing to explain to your partner that… Continue reading “No one has me like you do..”
All of it, always …
It's always been all of nothing with me. There is no emotion I have gone through that wasn't right on my face. Literally, I CANNOT HIDE IT. But I've tried. For the last couple years I have tried my hardest to hide all these emotions, fears and doubts. I pretended to be "ok" with the… Continue reading All of it, always …